Thursday, December 1, 2011

A Lesson unforgettable

2011. It's a really tough year. N a fast one too~ Throughout this year, i learnt many experiences, many new things, be it in sports (handball), life, or frens...To be honest, i hate this year the most~ cos this is the year i got into most trouble, made most enemies, stressed most abt studies, n lost the most frens..Its a really saddening n dull year for me. It's the most challenging yet experience-filling year. I learnt how to cherish my frens more, cherish everything i had b4 losing them..300 days of pain, stress...How i wish i could return back in time, n go back to 2010, 2-7. Whr i had the most fun, most frens, most happy in my life~ i missed their jokes, their laughter, their presence~..i made so many mistakes this year, i neglected G.JH, i didnt cherish Shangwei, n i took them all for granted..i drank beer in Vietnam trip, almost smoked, i kicked wajid away n treated him like he's invisible, in Vietnam ; i chose the clique over many things, i chose them over handball during a period of time, n most regrettably, i chose them over GJH, JinHui, YongRae, ShangWei...I argued with many ppl, n becos of my own selfish ambitions n over-reacting arrogance, i lost something tat no amount of monetary value can purchase. i lost frenship~ It was then too late tat i realised wat wrong had i done. However, it was no turning back.. I got mocked in Handball trainings, ppl despised me, hate me, they stop being frens with me, insulted me, kicked me aside, making me an outcast~ But, in return, i still retaliated in my usual furious defensive tone, accompanying it, was the feeling of depression, dull, dark, lonelyness, sadness..i could hardly smile anymore..It was terrible. Luckily, i still had some angels beside me, giving me support n encouragement, at the same time, trying to shine light into my life n letting me noe my mistakes. One of them is Janice, n the other, ShangWei. Without them, i would have collasped alrdy, all thanks to Shangwei. Its becos he'd been thru the same exp, which led him became wiser, mentaly stronger. He's not oni my fren, but my brother, my best fren, mentor, n my gd teammate. He guided me thru the dark path of my life. It was recently, tat i finally awaken from my deep ignorant sleep. aft seeing Edmund's post, i then realised everything i do is affecting the ppl ard me, no matter gd or bad. i realised tat when someone insults me, i don have to get mad or retaliate, instead i could either jus let him/her be, or jus relfect on myself. Insults will oni give me a clearer pic of my mistakes, it would oni makes a want for me to be a btr person. Forgive n Forget will always be above all. try letting it go, instead of making the probs become bigger, n giving myself a larger burden to carry.:) I really learnt alot this year, n i wanna thank those hu guided me along my darkest periods, those hu understands me. i learnt this lesson in a hard way becos of my ignorance n 好胜attitude. Don be like me, cherish wat u have now, b4 losing everything n making yr life miserable~ :) i wish nxt year would be a btr year for me:) Happy Holidays~

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